I don't know what I should do
Five verses to read slowly, in this order.
- 3.8
नियतं कुरु कर्म त्वं कर्म ज्यायो ह्यकर्मणः।
शरीरयात्रापि च ते न प्रसिद्ध्येदकर्मणः ॥niyataṁ kuru karma tvaṁ karma jyāyo hyakarmaṇaḥ
Perform your bounden duty, for action is superior to inaction, and even the maintenance of the body would not be possible for you through inaction.
śharīra-yātrāpi cha te na prasiddhyed akarmaṇaḥ - 3.35
श्रेयान्स्वधर्मो विगुणः परधर्मात्स्वनुष्ठितात्।
स्वधर्मे निधनं श्रेयः परधर्मो भयावहः ॥śhreyān swa-dharmo viguṇaḥ para-dharmāt sv-anuṣhṭhitāt
Better is one's own duty, though devoid of merit, than the duty of another well discharged. Better is death in one's own duty; the duty of another is fraught with fear.
swa-dharme nidhanaṁ śhreyaḥ para-dharmo bhayāvahaḥ - 18.47
श्रेयान्स्वधर्मो विगुणः परधर्मात्स्वनुष्ठितात्।
स्वभावनियतं कर्म कुर्वन्नाप्नोति किल्बिषम् ॥śhreyān swa-dharmo viguṇaḥ para-dharmāt sv-anuṣhṭhitāt
Better is one's own duty, even if it is destitute of merits, than the duty of another well performed. He who does the duty ordained by his own nature incurs no sin.
svabhāva-niyataṁ karma kurvan nāpnoti kilbiṣham - 18.48
सहजं कर्म कौन्तेय सदोषमपि न त्यजेत्।
सर्वारम्भा हि दोषेण धूमेनाग्निरिवावृताः ॥saha-jaṁ karma kaunteya sa-doṣham api na tyajet
One should not, O Arjuna, abandon the duty to which one is born, though it may be faulty; for, all undertakings are enveloped by evil, just as fire is by smoke.
sarvārambhā hi doṣheṇa dhūmenāgnir ivāvṛitāḥ - 18.63
इति ते ज्ञानमाख्यातं गुह्याद्गुह्यतरं मया।
विमृश्यैतदशेषेण यथेच्छसि तथा कुरु ॥iti te jñānam ākhyātaṁ guhyād guhyataraṁ mayā
Thus, wisdom more secret than secrecy itself has been declared to you by me. Reflect on it fully, then act as you wish.
vimṛiśhyaitad aśheṣheṇa yathechchhasi tathā kuru